and i don't want the whole world to see me
'cos i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
appearances are deceiving, my smiles are the antidote to my wounds. once you were my remedy, the one who lifted me high above. now i'm bandished by you, i've fallen down into the bottomless pit. my world crumbles, as you grew further away from reach. and the jingles of the bell, aggravates me as thoughts of you began forming. it's mind-boggling how one can deceive, as though everything was just a make-believe. but i can't live with that, i won't take that lying. you and i were a part of history, and we could had been more than just that. maybe somehow i don't even know what i'm saying, cos the words don't seems to come out right, and i just seem to be babbling. babbling non-stop. my mind is in a whirlpool, and all my thoughts are only of you; of the times we spent, of the smiles and laughter we once shared. i wish to ask 'how have you been?' 'is everything going fine? and are you happy?' but i don't seem to be able to muster up enough courage; perhaps i'm afraid i would end up in pain, like it has happened once too many times before. somehow i just can't get you outta my head, everything, everywhere, there seems to be traces of you lingering at every corner. this shit is so bad, i can't even think straight, i feel so empty, i feel so lost. what have you taken away from me? it's not my youth, it's not my time, you've taken with you a part of me, that can never ever be found.