Friday, December 02, 2005
Evasion Leading to Loneliness; Everything i Need.
you wouldn't understand how i feel,
when i saw you holding her.
wouldn't know what it's like,
to see you both hand in hand.
it was an awkward situation,
i was feeling out of place,
struggling so hard within me.
you wouldn't even look my way,
wouldn't even say a word;
it seems like i was invisible,
like i never even existed.
you couldn't care less even if i spoke,
or the fact that i was hurting deep inside.
call me a fool,
call me dumb,
call me stupid;
anything you please.
you wouldn't even know,
wouldn't even feel,
couldn't even see,
the things that i did.
your world revolves around her,
i'm happy to see you in bliss;
yet a part of me feels so out of place,
like i was trying so damn hard to fit in.
the songs i sang tonight with angst,
the way i steal glances at you;
like a thief.
the time you held her hands and leave,
do you know what i was feeling deep within?
you wouldn't even reply me,
wouldn't even pick up my calls.
i couldn't make it down to see you,
couldn't even express that i miss you.
do you sometimes think of me?
think of what it was like when we made believe,
think of the memories we used to share;
would you even reminisce?
do you know what it feels like to be me?
to not know what happened between you and me?
to accept that a barrier was suddenly formed,
and that we're no longer friends,
not anymore.
do you understand my dilemma?
should i wave and say hi,
or even goodbye?
so pent up my emotions within,
silently i'm just receiving everything.
each time i seek for the truth,
i'm blinded.
i wish you would just clarify with me.
i miss you.
i'm just a fool,
but i do;
i miss you.
>05:04
Egomanic.
THE MINORS | jawk | contradicts | misunderstood
ADDICTS | the gf | retail therapy |
AGONY | over-used | entrapment | deceiption |
let's stop running;
and start believing.
Shopaholic.
+ formal tops
+ polo tees of diff colors. :D
+ fix ipod mini.
+ w910i
+ sony vaio lap-top
Chimera.
+ license
+ leisure trip *(akan datang!)
+ aussie trip
+ my band. (: