and i don't want the whole world to see me
'cos i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
it's been a long journey, and i'm near graduation. with two days left in the 'torture chamber', and lots of memories. i can't help but recall of all the on-goings in my life.
from nafa to shatec, making new friends, losing the love of my life; experiencing working life. well, much had happened.
i still remember going for the interview with tenshi at shatec for the first time, only to find out we are going for different courses; but still glad to be in the same campus. messaging whenever we are in classes, having smoke breaks in the 'yellow box'; me, feeling that we are drifting apart, and regretting that we both left our collages for this one.
regretting my decisions when problems arised between bea* and i, struggling to juggle school, work and relationship; and finally losing bea*.
been in a clique of top students in my class, having to learn that backstabbing seriously hurts, and compeitions between classmates is not surreal. bonding with the guys and been a part of the 'rosette bros'.
panicking when work attachment drew near, arriving at my current hotel, only to be treated like dung; made a wonderful friend, and finally, am going to regain my freedom in two days.
so much had happened, and my heart is a little heavy now. losing bea* was a big blow to me, and things haven't been the same for me; but i'm glad we have those memories to look back upon.
meeting raine was seriously god's gift to me, having her guide me through, our endless bickers and laughters; i'm really thankful that our paths crossed.
graduation is near, and i can't wait to get back to school. i miss that old building, i miss loitering around corridors, i miss talking to people from different courses, and suprisingly, i miss studying; everything was so carefree, and well, making friends was easier. -sighs.
everything's ending now, mixed emotions. i will miss everything.
and it's so hard to put to words.
>02:10
Thursday, June 15, 2006
i'm pretty messed up right now, and i'm trying to set things right. there's been entries in this blog, which have been removed; for good.
i might get back to blogging soon, once everything's alright.