and i don't want the whole world to see me
'cos i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
it's been some night, and i'm very much worn out.
things have been happening like one after another, and i'm seriously about to give.
sometimes, a small little mistake can actually snowball to a big one. and sometimes, redemption is way too late.
things have been way over-used between us, and i guess you're equally worn out to move on. perhaps your heart is so dead, you don't wanna revive it no more. for every time you tell me "i don't know", it really breaks me inside.
'don't wanna try' the song plays on in my mind. well, i don't know either, the choice is not mine.
it takes two hands to clap, what's the point if one decide not to move at all? i don't know, i guess this is the first time i actually broke down because of you, it's not like i want to; the tears just won't stop flowing.
and i know i have failed. i have failed terribly in words i've said, i was not by your side when you needed me most; i have failed, failed so badly that i don't know what to do now.
and it hurts, it hurts so fucking much. and enough is enough, even this phrase itself is over-used.
i don't know how to go on expressing what i feel deep within, but i guess it really doesn't matter; does it? who gives shit about this anyway? i already feel you giving way.