Thursday, August 31, 2006
it seems to me that everything is
heading straight down like a waterfall.
confusion, compulsion..
i don't know.
how many of you had actually given up
your passion for another?
how many of you had actually let go
'cos you were forced to do so?
how many were denied chances of trying
just 'cos your parents said so?
i guess i can see many hands raising,
many heads nodding;
and perhaps a glimmer of tear in their eyes.
it's a sad world ain't it?
you don't get to do what you want,
you're forced to adapt to things
just 'cos life's like that.
sheesh.
so what's life really like?
why are there people who tell you
not to live in regret,
when in reality,
they are living in regrets?
i don't know anymore.
this is one fucked up road,
and should i stay or go?
i really don't know no more.
complicated heart.
>23:52
Thursday, August 17, 2006
i seem to be down on my luck recently?
like friendship stuffs are all haywire?
hurms.
just found out i was somehow
'made-used'?
and i fuckin hate that,
like seriously?
(:
don't push the limits,
i can really sprint if i want to,
jump if i need to,
attack if i have to.
you get my drift don't you?
good.
on the brighter note,
i still have very amazing friends.
esp mr takk.
x)
unknown glow.
>03:08
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i'm utterly disappointed,
and very badly hurt;
like once again.
you know,
this is some vicious cycle;
i'm so loving it.
and if you don't already know,
i was been sacastic.
(:
so when is enough like really
fucking enough?
i seriously don't know anymore.
i'm only human,
i've feelings too you know?
i guess you guys have clean forgotten
that i do.
(:
it's okay,
i understand.
that's just the way the cookie crumbles.
i'm sup to be this person,
with super senses.
if you're unhappy,
i will know.
if you need me,
i have to be there somehow.
no,
i don't have life of my own.
you see,
jawk is sup to be free,
and all her time is for you.
there's no excuse.
none whatsoever.
so when jawk is not around,
she don't care anymore.
she don't wanna put in any effort.
that must be it!
you know what?
ya.
that is IT!
jawk is tired already,
and jawk don't care anymore.
so whatever world.
friends are just letters,
for free access to everything else.
friends.
bull.
x)
seriously, whatever.
>00:51
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
you know,
it's always amazing how people
tend to take things for granted?
they don't care or give two hoots
when they have something;
but when it's gone,
they make a hell lot of noise,
regret it all;
and then go all out to ruin everything else.
and then,
there are people who actually do anything at all,
just so they can achieve what they want.
be it popularity,
friendship, relationship, or whatnots;
they will do anything just to get them.
stab you in the back,
stab you up front,
stab you till you bleed to death;
anything at all.
=)
frienship is such an amazing thing,
isn't it?
you meet some great people along the way,
some people you keep,
some people you know you can't keep;
and there are just some whom you have to ditch.
don't get me wrong,
i'm still happy and glad with my life;
enjoying every living day,
and i've never felt so much drive.
it's all good now.
it's just that i'm only human,
of 'cos there are things that still bugs me,
and occasionally things that get me mad
or sad;
or even bug me.
it's all part and parcel of life,
but it's really incredible when you
have a better knowledge of reality.
though it bites,
and it hurts sometimes;
but then again,
there are times when things happen
so abruptly to bring joy.
i'm just crapping as usual,
but somewhere along the line,
i've a point to make.
go figure.
=)
it's all so wonderful.
>04:02
Saturday, August 05, 2006
i've been hearing this song,
'Because Of You' by Kelly Clarkson;
like one time too many.
then again,
i think the lyrics are pretty true,
and i love the song alot.
(is it some kinda sign? hmms.)
i've been busy with trainning recently,
and reading manual really puts me to sleep.
however,
meeting new people is pretty interesting,
and at the same time lots of fun.
x)
i guess life is pretty amazing,
with the ups and downs in it.
everything happens for a reason,
and everyone deals with situations differently.
hmms,
i think i've changed quite abit;
and i'm sure dardar agrees on that.
it's amazing how things can seem
so beautiful and wonderful,
when your perception changes.
changes have taken place,
and this is just the beginning.
overall,
i'm doing pretty good;
and loving every minute of everything.
(:
we could be more than just amazing.
>02:25
Thursday, August 03, 2006
the world is ever changing,
and it's always tough to live and let live.
but there are times,
when one have to;
and that's when one really grows.
i guess,
somehow i did?
(:
it's been a long time coming,
like seriously.
and for certain issues,
it's time for a closure.
yes,
i'm very much into bea*,
but no,
i don't want us back.
it was a good experience,
and everything else happened
would always be held deeply and treasured.
but the past is the past,
and what's broken is already broken.
there's no point in mending it,
only to be reminded of the cracks
each and everytime i look at it.
i rather leave it as it is.
(:
i'm pretty much in a comfort zone now,
whereby i'm happy with everything.
i like to look back on the memories,
laugh at my foolish-ness and whatnots,
and just leave it like this.
misunderstandings are the downfall of mankind,
that's like my latest quote.
and i like that phrase itself very much,
since i'm very bad at expressing myself
and often am misunderstood.
but that's that,
explanations are at times only excuses,
it's up to each individual to go figure.
the bigger picture and truth are easily distorted,
but who really gives?
excuse me if i got off topic,
but then again,
this is my space.
(:
so amazing; definately incredible.
>01:00
Egomanic.
THE MINORS | jawk | contradicts | misunderstood
ADDICTS | the gf | retail therapy |
AGONY | over-used | entrapment | deceiption |
let's stop running;
and start believing.
Shopaholic.
+ formal tops
+ polo tees of diff colors. :D
+ fix ipod mini.
+ w910i
+ sony vaio lap-top
Chimera.
+ license
+ leisure trip *(akan datang!)
+ aussie trip
+ my band. (: