and i don't want the whole world to see me
'cos i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
already the heart feels heavy, already it's missing and longing. i really hate to be doing this, is there no other way out? i'm clueless.
what started out as a place i dread, i grew accustomated and i love it. yet situations and circumstances, does not allow me to stay put.
i came in feeling out of place, it's like i don't belong; and many times my heart feels heavy, and i teared in my own solitude.
a month later, i was accepted; and though mistakes were made, i was forgiven and guided back.
movement of management, there were unhappiness; nonetheless, we held on tight.
eventually it was too much to bear, and one left; leaving two behind.
but one was away, and alone i was; fighting hard for survivor, guiding new one along.
he probably had ideas of his own, and things began to fall apart from then.
life was miserable, but i hung on. it was them who made me felt at home.
and now it's time i bade farewell, 'cos i know in time to come he's gonna rid me of all.
i'm so unhappy. =(
i really really love this place i am in, why is it that i have to leave?
it's always easy to just point out the flaws in others, the mistakes they make, the things they tend to forget. it's always easy to just give instructions, give out orders, and push the blame. but it's never easy to remember, to appreciate, or to thank. and it's the hardest for one, to forgive and forget; and get the lost sheep back to land.