and i don't want the whole world to see me
'cos i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am.
Monday, May 28, 2007
sometimes i wonder.. what kinda company am i working for?
all the transferring, all the pressure, all the unreasonable crap, and this indignant shit i'm feeling.
i'm tired. really am.
all this 4years i stay in the company, all these times i feel i should do something for it; all this time.. i'm just a fucking tool.
someone for them to put where they needed or lack of people. where they feel i shouldn't be in my comfort, whenever i achieve something, i'm stripped of everything. all the fucking bullshit.
*sigh. one day.. just one day.. i will just explode. (:
the facade, the facade.
>17:46
Sunday, May 20, 2007
i'm very annoyed to know that you've to do the things that others abandoned. i feel indignant to know that they don't even appreciate what you did.
whilst everyone is out having fun, you're gonna be facing shits. i don't like this, not a bit.
and YOU. the one who claims to feel so much, the one who claims to be so good, the one who claims to be everything.. well.. fuck you!
in my eyes, you don't fit to have what you have. neither do you deserve what you're fighting for. and perhaps.. i'm to blame for keepin faith. fuck you.
i'm ultra annoyed now. but on another note, i miss the gf. (:
be with you.
>03:33
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
highly annoyed.
seems like i've been casted aside, and the most irritating part is when there are people who still cares, who still wants to help you out; but ultimately, some arsehole dislike that idea.
i try my best to keep everyone out of shats like this, but somehow i feel unappreciated. some people or rather someone, makes it seems like i'm indebted to her forever since she came to help me, or at least that's the vibes she's projecting towards me.
i'm highly irritated.
have the fucking world forgotten that i'm a fucking human being too? and i fucking have emotions and feelings? ah. fuck it. (:
and this is time where letting go means let it all slide away.